So right now, i have no motivtion for anything. I think it is because I don't have much of a purpose in life right now. This color is not working..... Anyways, that is better. My purpose consists of waiting for people to call back for jobs in ATL, sending emails and calling them. It also consists of entertaining friends, but that only lasts so long. I also cook dinner for my family, and am fixing my car, at least that is on the agenda for tomorrow. I am actually contemplating what the hell i really wanna do with my life. i know i would like to have a kid before i'm 30, but no one really seems good enough for me to go there with them. then, when i do find someone good, they do not interest me. i'm sorry, i can't be bored or i will do bad things. So I am contemplating moving back to Costa Rica. I have an opportunity to teach at a school... maybe... depending on how many kids show up. I can learn Spanish. Jeison will give me a free place to stay, but if I don't stay there, I have a few back ups - Rockin J's, Marlene's and Shannon's. Each place will be less than $150/ month which is much cheaper than living in ATL. The problem is that I don't completely understand the culture, and the people there I have not known for very long. It would be a great adventure, though, and I would learn a lot about languages, people, cooking, life, blah blah blah. I loved it down there!!! I would also spend less. The other possibility is moving back to ATL. I also love Atlanta... I have wonderful friends, that will let me stay with them until I find a job. The only problem with that is that I haven't found a job yet. I am looking, but it is not looking good so far. I thought I had a lead, but it didn't turn out to be as promising as I thought. In ATL, I would have to pay about $600/ month to live plus living expenses. It costs WAY more in ATL. I would have Paul, but that could be considered a good thing and a bad thing. who knows. The one pull to Atlanta I really have is my friend base. There are people that i actually trust there. I have a hard time trusting even Americans in Costa Rica, but it has shown me how to deal with that. Anyways, the point of this is that I am really confused and relatively unhappy. Either place I go, I will have to deal with bullshit, but I guess that is anywhere in the world. I just wish I knew the right thing to do, and all that f'n jazz... at least there is a good game on tonight. that is making me happy.
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"Our hearts are restless until they rest in Him." --St. Augustine
What about the two time-honored ways of escaping boredom? Learning something new or doing a good deed always get people out of boredom. The St. Luke's NEW Life center needs tutors for women and children. Elderly grandparents won't be around forever.
Spending time alone in silence is a time-honored way of finding yourself and hearing God's voice to direct you to the path he has for you. It's hard to hear him when there's too much noise.
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